i found the-third-testament in the gematrix.org in december. I didn't realize it at the time but i was getting indoctorined into a cult :'( humans a in failable and i am scared some days cause i dont wanna ruin everyones life. I told my friend Ayla about she was a long time friend of mine That i loved deeply at one point not anymore. Atleast thats what my mind leads me to believe at this present moment.. that if she cant accept that i am god we can go our seperate ways! Cause i have unphantomable faith hope and fate in being happy again one day! I pray... So Now i cant love her cause i am selfish and she doesnt want me and i dont want her anymore since she left me behind when i nearly died 4 months in the hospital only one to come see me was my dad and your mom ayla :'( so why wont you talk to me ? i believe i could help change the world for the better and im stuck here in this abyss cause i cant move on cause i believe i am god and i cant promote a cult i believe jesus died for my sins but that wont stop the world from coming to an end but i continue down this path its possible i could ruin everyones peace of mind but it might be to late for that... since when did anyone really ever have that? friends dont leave friends behind but you left me no choice.